I’ve spent a lot of of my life working on my weakness. After listening to Gary Vanynerchuck, my thought process is shifting. I will warn you, his language is strong, and some may be put off by what appears to be someone who has a huge ego, but I will tell you that his honesty is somewhat refreshing.
As a result of listening to Gary Vee and following him on social media, I’ve spent the last six months becoming more self aware and little by little trying to narrow down and answering questions like Who I am? What am I good at? What inspires me? What am I passionate about?
I have a Bachelors of Social Science degree in Education and an Associates degree in Health and Physical Education. I was a average student. I tried finding a job but grew very impatient, and I gave up on following my career path in coaching and teaching in the public sector. Instead of following that pat, I got married, had kids, and my family became my career. I even home schooled my kids for awhile.
Now that my kids are grown and in college, I like many am left empty and due to some poor decision making, and lack of employment find myself at 46 turning over a new leaf. I didn’t plan on being here in my life, It’s my fault. However, I don’t regret ever and never will regret staying home with my kids. They are everything to me.
For the past twelve years, I’ve been studying, acting, improvisation, and film making. After dabbling in acting, and film making, I’ve come to realize that I don’t care for the main stream market. I don’t want to move to LA, New York, or Chicago. I don’t want to work on projects that I don’t agree with just to make it in the industry. I don’t want to shop an agent for months with no success etc. I just don’t want to take all my energy at this point and establish that career.
I do love the discovery of acting, I do love the collaboration process, I absolutely love improvisation, and I love creating meaningful work. I’ve written several scripts as well. I do enjoy this process, but recent events have made me realize that I have a lot of work to do before I am even ready to embark on this as a career.
So over the past two weeks, I’ve come to discover that my original plan wasn’t to far off from what I am good at. I’ve to realize that natrually, I’m a helper, coach, and team player that wants to help people succeed. I want to be apart of a team constantly that wants to succeed in whatever they are doing.
There are so many directions that I could go in. I love sports, music, acting, and social media. I love teaching others, so I feel that is what I need to be doing on some level. In the mean time, I just have to find a day job to pay the bills.
I feel that knowing is half the battle.
Thanks Gary for helping me become more self aware.
I know I havent written a blog in a bit, but as my instagram account proves, I’m still around. I,ve just been writing a script instead of my blog. I’ve been working on this script all year, and I’m finally in the final draft now. I’m awaiting feeback from fellow writers. And once I tidy up the ending of the second script, it will be off to WGA for copyright and the library of Congress.
I have a beginning for third script, and then I will ready to submit to an agent. It’s very exciting, even though it’s time consuming. I hope you hang around the blog, exciting times lie ahead.
Here is a link to my daughter’s new album. Enjoy!
Fall has crept in, and we have began to see the hints of official changing of the seasonal weather.
It is so gradual in Alabama. It was just 80-90 degrees during the day a few weeks ago. Then, it began to get colder at night, and we had a couple of rainy days. A trickle of leaves here and there. Now, we’ve reached the 50-60 degree weather. In just one weekend, Fall explodes.
And even though we still see flowers blooming.
Fall is here. It is just in time for The Thanksgiving holiday. Welcome Fall!
I love journaling. In my mind its a private blog. It’s a place that I can write things down as I process them. I love getting plain journals and collecting stickersto decorate them. Here is my current journal.
Today, I got stickers at a health fair for cancer awareness. I thought it would be apprpriate to place these stickers next to his. Also, I thought it would honor all my family and friends that have fought cancer.
In regards to the Smurfs and Trolls, they just make me happy.
I have loved traveling with this guy.
We have seen so much over the last six months. It’s crazy to me seems like yesterday this was happening.
That is a picture of our camper before we hit the road. We have traveled in over 20 states in the united states in six months. It has been nice to just hang out with each other and see things that we never got to see. We didn’t get much of a honeymoon when we got married. We had kids within two years of saying I do. So this travel time, it was timely. Now that we are empty nesters, life is so different. This trip has helped me deal with a lot of what I was going through. It has helped me refocus, and really pin point what I need to be doing in the season ahead. It’s funny how this comes right as the seasons are changing.
I know in the south we are all ready for cooler days. We all are even ready for a little rain. For Eric and I changes lie ahead. We’re both looking to get back to work and settle down somewhere for a long while. Traveling is fun, and exciting. It would be nice to do that forever, but seasons of our lives come just like the seasons of weather.
I’ve been working on a new screenplay. As I’m going through the process, I’ve also been watching some very passionate muscians perform. It’s amazing to me how some people can expose themselves through writing a lyric, or through a performance. First they’ve found a way to find out who they are. Their writing or performance mirrors their true self.
Second, they have found a way to get that out from inside their body and mind, and written or performed it.
As I write this screenplay, I continue to break down the walls that I have allowed to be built around me. Maybe the walls are their to hide from bullies, fear of failiure, or trying to be someone I’m not. I do believe sometimes we are unaware of the walls that we’ve built.
I do believe that as an artist that I must continue to push myself until I am as vulnerable as I possible can be. Once I can go to places that are currently blocked, then and only then will I be able to tap into my true self.